Really hit a point where I have too much going on in my head to really feel inspired, well at least for a couple of days. I'm going to try and get back on the bus, but there is something eating at me and I'm not sure how long it will, think I just need to get out and talk to someone so they can point out how much of an ejit I am being about the whole thing, I mean I talk to an ex so why shouldn't she? I just have a double standard issue in my head I need to work out.

Well I am SO going to try the healing power of Mike Patton, Trent Reznor and Layne Staley to see if any of it helps, if not I think I'll have to find another way to work through stuff.

Yeah I know this is all irrelevent to DA but just don't want to post it in the normal place and having just moved I can't go see the people I would normally talk to as they're no longer 30 secs away.

I just hope I can get stuff worked out soon and get back to writing, I need it to help me stay sane most of the time. On the plus side I no longer ave a raving stoner drunk as a housemate, who just distracts me and numbs my brain. I just hope shit works out for him, but at the end of the day it's his fault he's in the mess he is.

I think I may start getting some design ideas for the races in my RPG so that I can really get going with things, also I need to find the map but really don't want to tell my ex-housemate why I want it because he feels he contributed so much to it and I really think he didn't even do 1% of all the work that got done.

Well out with the doodle pad, I never end up with the things I want and just can't really draw much, and give this design stuff a go. If that doesn't work then I think I will go for a bit of V:tM if I can find a decent forum/chat room and if that fails well there will be a massive emotional rant that may get posted as a piece of work so I can try and see how dumb I'm being, or how green my eyes have gone.